It was never easy
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Few things can make us feel crazier than
expecting something from someone who
has nothing to give
Few things can frustrate us more than
trying to make a person someone
he or she isn't;
we feel crazy when we try to pretend
that person is someone he or she is not
We may have spent years negotiating
with reality concerning particular people
from our past and our present
We may have spent years trying to get
someone to love us in a certain way,
when that person cannot or will not
It is time to let it go
It is time to let him go ***
It's kinda hard to describe how i feel for him now.
It's like, I'm at the end of the tunnel, but I'm not stepping out into the light.
I'm at the exit, and the door is wide open, but i'm not going through.
I'm looking away, but I'm not letting go of the strings.
Why is this so?
I don't feel the nervouses or the jelly legs or the crazy heartbeats anymore
So why can't I bear to delete his old messages?
Why did i feel happy when he looked at me, talked to me, and smiled at me?
Why was i overcome by emptiness when i had to leave?
Why was i dissapointed when he looked, but did not wave back?
Are those really pure emotions for a friend,
Or ramnants of the feelings i used to have for him?
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~(12:23 AM)
