The Joy Of Being Happy

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Finished reading "The Joy Of Being Happy" at 2am last night. It's a fanfiction. Not bad even though i still prefer "Cinderella~ But the glass slippers never belonged to me"

Contradictory to it's name, the story's really morbid, actually just the end LOL The main character ended up swallowing 30pills to commit suicide ("Will the thirtieth one bring him back alive? Will I finally be happy?" ) and her ex-best friend ended up in jail/mental institude for killing the main character's most recent boyfriend, singing "oh... oh the joy... the joy of being happy..." LOL

But the line that hit me the most was when the guy was convincing the girl that there's nothing wrong in them being together just because she is six years older then him (he's 19 while she's 25)

“Right. So we wait? We wait until you’re 30 and I’m 24? You’re 35 and I’m 29? You’re 40 and I’m 34? Oh how about you're 100 and I'm 94? What age is appropriate for you noona? So that you don’t feel guilty about ‘robbing the cradle’ because I guarantee you, if you’re with me – I’m the one that’s gonna be ROCKING YOU.”

noona-older sister in korean

hahahahha I would have melted. The line in bold was in my mind all day while working ;P

But the story did make me think a little about me and u-noe-who lol

“Do you still feel love when you’re with him? Or do you feel what you think is love? We always want to fix our mistakes. Sometimes, we just never really get over the emotions we felt in the past.”

Yups. You know how they always say it's not the one you can live with, but the one you cannot live without? Yah, it hit me that over the 1year,3months and 19days that I've liked him, we've spent probably less then 50days together. And I'm PERFECTLY FINE about it. It's not that i don't miss him, it's just that, it doesn't really affect me. Which leads to the question, "do i really like him?"

I haven't seen him in 2months. I wonder how it'll be like the next time i do.

"Let go of the past that didn't make it into your future"

Yup, i guess this is it. I'm not completely over him, but I'm making an effort hahahaha But then again, like with exercising, I might come back here the next time i see him saying something like "It's impossible after all, to get over him..." You never know :) Let's wish that that doesn't happen, but don't get your hopes too high hahahaha

And the closing quote

"The joy of happiness doesn’t rid you of sadness and pain, it just simply hides it for you momentarily"

~(11:37 PM)