Courage
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Its been a long time since i visited my cousins. I used to go every weekend, but now that i have to work every weekend, and i have school from Mondays-Thursdays, and they have school on all weekdays, the only time i can visit are fridays during their school holidays lol
While playing daidee, i found out how the older one got into his first "relationship". The girl confessed. On msn, she said, "I want to marry you when I grow up" lol Seriously! Well the relationship ended anyway cause she was too whiny.
But the point is, I admire the girl. She has got balls. (Even if it WAS through msn)
I would never, ever, dare to say anything like that to him, in whatever way. Even making a decent conversation face to face seems hard enough. And I often hesitate before starting a MSN convo, or before sending an SMS. What if he doesn't reply?
I worry about too many things.
I was always telling myself I'll confess, but in the end I'll back out of my own deal. I'm a coward, in so many ways. And I'm too afraid. Not just rejection, but what little friendship we have built up over the short course of a year. And hope.
Well, at least after much consideration, i settled what to get him for his birthday :)
~(12:49 AM)
