Twist Serve? LOL

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Lol seriously, real tennis and Prince Of Tennis(anime) tennis are two different things hahaha there's no such thing as "boomerang snake" or "jake's knife" or whatever lol So people, don't start playing a sport just because your addicted to an anime related to it hahahha

Ohyeah i got hooked on Prince of Tennis. Yeah i wondered how people can watch over 100+ episodes about tennis lol but it's possible hahaha im at episode 68?

Here's an episode you can watch. It has nothing to do with the tournaments or whatever, just 3short stories totally unrelated to the series or to each other hahaha super cute! http://www.animefuel.com/prince-of-tennis-episode-64/

Yupyup oh and the other day while in the mrt, there was a guy beside me who had a fruity smell lol Just thought he smelt good =P

And i just watched Hannah Montana & Miley Cyrus Best Of Both Worlds Concert In 3D LOL Too bad i didn't get the 3D goggles sigh lotsa blue and red blurrish images lol Oh and the Jonas Brothers are cute! LOL

School's starting real soon, and i haven't started on the homework and projects. Me and my groups are so dead. LOL




~(8:53 PM)


Seeing Red

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

I wonder when I'm redder
When sunburnt,
Or flushing infront of him LOL

Ahwell

~(11:27 PM)


Back again

Saturday, June 14, 2008

hahah haven't blogged since the previous super-long post. Well fret not, here's another one LOL

Was at TDP camp from monday to wednesday, and the group i belonged to was called KUNGFU WARRIORS! Consisting of me, tingting, kaixin, melissa, penny, leeping, isabel, aloysius, joel, runihra, and our two facilitators dawn and yuzheng(he looks like mr.tay!!!). The camp was not bad la, just that i kept falling asleep during the long "seminars" LOL But the lodging rocked! hahaha oh and we won BEST PERFORMANCE GROUP with our skit during the concert night lol which was really really great, cause i would have felt dissapointed if we didn't. Yups, that's all lo hahaha

On the day we left camp right, i slept at 8pm ah! So damn tired lol Woke up at 11+ the next day and just slacked around lo, then met up with QSM!! at Amk hub lol. Walked around, had coffee bean and i got a new pair of slippers! That doesn't give me blisters! Not even the first time i wore them! Yay! Lol okayyy... so after that we went to my spectacle shop near her house hahaha but in the end didn't change anything cause my parents say wait first. Then went home lo hahaha

On friday went to ICU/IAC or whatever to renew my passport lol Then went to centrepoint with my parents for SHOPPING! hahaha got 2 Levis jeans la! One dark blue and one light yellow(surprised right!) lol cause my previous(one and only) levis jeans i wore it for SEVEN LONG YEARS! So finally my parents say okay, you can get another one! But instead i got two! And a shirt! hahahaha The plan was to get shoes in the end didn't get it cause i didn't see any to my liking. Ahwell. Other then that, got a mini-chocolate-fondue thingy and a book called 31st Dream Street lol Havent started reading.

Yeah watched They Kiss Again last night till 7 in the morning, and slept till 6 in the afternoon today. hahhahahah Okay im watching Dou Niu Yao Bu Yao now, byebye!

~(8:51 PM)


Dedications

Monday, June 09, 2008

Please read this post if your Alan Lee, Zihui, Darrell, Chialynn, Soomei, Jiaqi, Kennard or Darren.

But if your not mentioned above but your really really bored, you can still read this post. No guarantee on being entertained though lol

Yoyo people lol. I'm going to camp later(after 12) so before i do, here are some updates =)

Wednesday:

Met up with Alan Leeeeee for our farewell meal at NYNY(He paid!!!) hahahha Thanks brother! Walked around after that and my dad fetched him home. So good lo! Can dine with me, got people drive him home some more! Lol such blessings, where to get but with me! LOL

Hey alan, i know i promised you a post, but hor, due to time constraints, lol it wont be an individual post but part of a bigger post LOL okay not making sense, but here goes.

Thanks for being my godbrother for all these years lol Since the first day you know me you've been taking care of me lol From geography homework to chinese compos to breakups, cryings, entertaining me when im bored, bringing me out, movies, free meals and stuff. Really appreciate it hahaha Now that your going to NS, im so gonna miss you la. No more free meals, movies, no more kajiao-ing and when i quarell with my friends and cry, i can't call you and whine about it anymore. So sadded. But don't worry! All that activities shall resume when you come out of NS 2years from now alright! LOL please don't die before your ORD or BMT or whatever lol. Shall see you on 12 of september when you come out, and i expect another meal! MUAHAHAHAHHA LOL Take care now. Remember you still have your family, your brothers, your girlfriend and ME waiting for you when you come out! =))))

YOUR THE BEST GODBROTHER EVER! <3

AND I'LL BE WAITING TO TAKE PICTURE WITH YOU IN YOUR BOTAK FORM! LOL

With lotsa lotsa love,
Your dear godsister,
mx

Thursday:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZIHUIIIIIII!!!!

Hope you liked your present, and card, and the celebration, and the voodoo and the souvenir! Seee i sooooo gooooodddddd give you so many things in one day! Lol okay la, the souvenir i kinda owe it to you, the voodoo is uhhh, some symbolic thing for our friendship lol all the guys(songen, jiaqi, kennard and you!) got it! As for the rest... well it's your birthday! hahah i never really got the chance to apologise to you, for not knowing/forgetting your birthday for the two years we were classmates and also forgetting to invite you to my birthday party last year (yes stop reminding me about it already!) lol Well i was trying to make up for it lol And besides, you've been such a supporting, encouraging and helpful friend, so you totally deserve it! Don't worry for as long as we're friends (i hope very very very long hahahaa how bout all our lifes?), i'll always remember your birthday! Look forward to next year man! hahaha and remember your promise for MY 21st birthday =P And may all your birthday wishes come true!

Well Wishes,
mx

As you can see, thursday was zihui's birthday! hahaha We celebrated his special day at North Point's Swensens! LOL i had pasta, and we had earthquake, and his birthday cake, and WE CAKED HIM! hahahha so enjoyable =P We as in, Songen, Darren, Jiaqi, Me, Zihui, Denise, David and Cindy, but jiaqi left before the caking =( OHHH and zihui was ordered to remove the candles from the cake with his mouth! LOL Okay anyway after that zihui and the rest left too cause zihui had night tuition and the rest.. just wanna do homework o_0 So me, darren and songen walked around lo, and played pool, i just sat there and watch. And then when i finally decided to try pool again, songen went, "if the ball doesnt go in, jiaqi will NEVER like you!" So heheh, i aimed, i shoot... AND I SCOREDDDD! LOL you had no idea how happy i was la! I started jumping around and shouting, IT WENT IN! HE MIGHT LIKE ME! IT'S A SIGN FROM HEAVEN! Lol then songen was all, "because the ball went in, it means that jiaqi will NOT never like you, but he MIGHT not like you" like whatever right! Might is better then never, at least i still stood a chance lol Okay so after that, huihui came, songen went home, so me, darren and huihui went to jubilie's arcade. lol Basically i suck at ParaPara or Dance Dance Revolution Lol okay, end of story lol

Friday:

Friday was easy lol. I was supposed to go to the gym with darren and songen, but i overslept hahahahah So instead, i met up with Darrell (Nice guy from my pri.2 class lol), we had lunch at Macs, and we watched Narnia: Prince Caspian and Made Of Honour! LOL He's so nice that, even when i spilled the popcorn, he didn't scold me or call me stupid or whatever that Songen might have. And he didn't have a place to put his drink (dunno why) so he held on to it throughout the whole Made Of Honour movie!(okay, no link!) WAH SEHHH LOL But most importantly, he let me have my way all the time! Lol like wanting to watch two movies, and what movies to watch lol Super Nice Guy!
Thanks darrell if your reading my blog lol Oh and because you/he only watched like less then 10movies in your/his WHOLE LIFE, i shall help you/him increase that number to um, 50? If possible by the end of 3years! LOL

Oh and though it's abit late, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHIALYNN!!!

Come to think of it, we've never celebrated your birthday together before! Dang. Anyway your coming back soon! June 28th! I'll be waiting! We can hang out again! hahaha and bring back some souvenirs for MEEEEE! =P YOU ROCK MY SOCKS OFF LOL

Oh, and we've known each other for the 6th year already! hahaha even though we've never really been super close or whatever, but hey, we're still in contact, that's saying something lol Okay I'm sure you enjoyed your special day lol Can't wait to see you again!

Saturday:

zZzZzZzZ Basically i spent saturday sleeping but i had a weird dream lol I told soomei about it already hahahha So, the setting is this beach. Jiaqi and Soomei are together, not like hanging out that kinda together, but steady, girlfriend-boyfriend kinda together. I know, totally reminded me of Nick with Anita/FC situation. You know, the whole crush falling for best friend thing. But anyway, we're at the beach and the two of them were looking dreamily into each others eyes :'( I was emo so i left the bench we were at and went to pick seashells lol The seashells were special la! It was't the normal kind, but it took on shapes and represents people in my life lol So one represented soomei hahaha It's a girl, with 2plaited pony tails, wearing a skirt and got tie some more. Kinda look like a teacher. Jiaqi was just a regular guy lo, in long pants and tie i think. Lol his hair is the, you know in primary school how you draw guy's fringe, zig-zag one LOL Can't remember la but i picked a lot of shells and i went into this shop, and got colour pencils! And something that glows in the dark. Then i woke up lol What were you expecting? LOL

So, here's a message to the both of you (if the BOTH of you read my blog lol i know soomei does, not sure bout jiaqi lol)

Soomei, Please don't fall for jiaqi cause your my best friend and i so don't want to jue jiao with you LOL Okay la i know you won't, just saying for fun lol

Jiaqi, please don't fall for soomei cause she's my current best friend and i so don't want to jue jiao with her LOL Okay la i THINK you won't, just saying for fun

Please god, don't let this dream come true!!!

Ohyeah then hor, cause i watched the narnia movie on the day before then i suddenly remember Aslan saying, "The same thing doesn't happens twice, my child" lol so i don't think it will happen la! And Aslan is a god too! LOL So it must be true! hahahahaha

Sunday:

Had another weird dream lol This time it took place in this HDB flat corrider way lol I think i was watching from another HDB? But there were celebrities dancing at the doors of the apartments lol and there was Fann Wong! hahahhaha then after that change location. I and god knows who were dining at this restaurant, and sitting opposite me is Terrance Cao, some mediacorp artise lol hahahahaa okay la totally no link lol

I told darren and nard about it and nard was like, "If you dream about jiaqi i understand la, or about business or adventure seekers or whatever, but Fann wong?!!! Is there a scandal or something?" LOL

Anyway,

Met up with Songen, Jiaqi, Kennard and Darren to watch KUNGFU PANDA!!! Lol the show was funnny, go catch it! hahahah So at the end of the movie, we assign ourselves to each of the characters lol I wanted to be the Tigeress cause it was the only female in the group, but they say cause i small i become Preying Mantis lol. Jiaqi's the Tigeress lol don't ask me why. Darren the Crane, SongEn the Monkey and Kennard is the Dragon Warrior!, PO lol I think zihui can be the snake, or the master LOL Who wants to be the Wu Gui? HAHAHA okay anyway, after that we went to J8 cause Nard wanted to get a new bag. WARNING: NEVER GO SHOPPING FOR A NEW BAG WITH CHEN SONGEN! lol He will rush you! Not good. So not in the spirit of good shopping ethics lo Some more during GSS period! LOL so After that songee and jiaqi left so me, nard and darren had dinner at foodcourt. Then we took 88back to amk, then me and nard went to walk around and got some stuff. Yup then i came home and pack my baggggg lol yeah thats all i guess

Oh, and I'M SO DAMN HAPPY THAT KENNARD HAS FORGIVEN ME AND NOW WE CAN TALK LIKE BEFORE. Unlike our previous cold war where there was this awkwardness after the coldwar, this time don't have!

OMG KENNARD LOL Thanks for forgiving me? LOL MEET UP AFTER OUR CAMPSSSS =DDDDD

And Darren, Thanks so much for always being there for me, especially during the "Great Depression" lol You've been a really really great friend. You always say the right things, and the things i would want to hear lol Don't worry, even if me and nard patch liao, i won't neglect you de! LOL You rockkkkk! HAHAHAHHA

Okay, that's all for now. It's a rather long post, so i apologise for any singlish(makes the post more lively, doncha think?), spellings or grammatical mistakes. And hor, it's not that i don't want to put pictures, but the bluetooth got problem so lol maybe after i come back from camp lol which is wednesday. Hopefully i'll enjoy it. Okay 2.27 liao, and im supposed to wake up at 6.15 so yeah. Byebye and take good care! If you die, cannot read my blog liao. Super sad lol Kay TILL THEN!

=DDDDDD

~(12:40 AM)


Cause I Still Believe

Saturday, June 07, 2008

Hello peeps. Added a new blog song lol. I like it, hope you like it too! =)

Hayden Panettiere- I Still Believe

Somehow I know I will find a way
To a brighter day in the sun
Somewhere I know that he waits for me
Someday soon he'll see I'm the one

I won't give up on this feeling
And nothing could keep me away

'Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and I were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
'Cause I still believe, believe in love

I know what's real cannot be denied
Although it may hide for awhile
With just one touch love can calm your fears
Turning all your tears into smiles

It's such a wondrous feeling
I know that my heart can't be wrong

'Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and I were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
'Cause I still believe, believe in love

Enough to make miracles change everything
Lift you from the darkness and make your heart sing
Love is forever when you fall
It's the greatest power of all

Oh I still believe in destiny
That you and I were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
'Cause i still believe, believe in love

Yes, I still believe, believe in love
I still believe in love!
I still believe, believe in love

~(3:33 AM)


Betting Is Wrong!

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Zihui had a bet with Jiaqi that if he called me with Jiaqi's hp, i wouldn't pick up.

Guess what, he lost lol

Zihui called me with his handphone first, but i was asleep, and i thought it was the alarm which was why i didn't pick up lol

And then when he called me with jiaqi's handphone, i thought it was the snooze alarm, and i just wanted to sleep, so i picked up the phone, hoping to off the alarm altogether, saw jiaqi's face and answered the call lol

Then after we hung up, i realised that I didn't even set any alarms lol

Ahwell. My explaination to zihui was that i was more sensitive to jiaqi calling lol

Moral of the story: STOP BETTING

It's not just for zihui or jiaqi who won, but yah.

HEY ZIHUI! YOU HAVEN'T TOLD ME WHAT THE BET WAS ON!

lol Okay then, tag me when you've read this okay =)

<3

~(4:11 PM)


A little bit better then yesterday

Monday, June 02, 2008

The previous post was an emo one
So here's to happier posts in the future! =D

Well firstly, i'm glad to announce that MY COMMON TESTS ARE OVER!

Okay i did enough to pass both my papers i guess, just not quite sure if it's enough for me to get an A lol I got the whole general ledger/adjusting entries thing wrong for POA, and afew of my answers were different from the rest for econs T/F and MCQ questions lol Well i just have to win yuankai in Econs hahahha our little challenge

So, i'm in a slightly happier mood now, since the burden of common tests are off my shoulders and also partly because im munching honey stars as i type this entry lol Since nobody was free to have lunch with me :( im substituting lunch with my favourite childhood-till-now snack lol Assuming i'm gonna sleep my afternoon away, i wouldn't need much energy anyway. Just enough to fill my stomach. Plus, it's healthy! I think... well it's SWEET! LOL

Ohyeah and i got tagged by my cousin, so now i hafta do that whatever-i-have-to-do-thing when i get tagged. Here goes.
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Rule 1) People who have been tagged on their blogs must write their answer on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

Rule 2) Tag 8 people to do this quiz and those 8 people cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag back the person whom they were tagged by.

Continue this game by sending it to other people.

QN 1) What do you think an ideal friend should be like?
Like ME! lol

QN 2) What would happen if you were deprived of food for a week???????
We can survive without food for a week as long as there's still air and water. I'll hibernate lol

QN 3) Whose butt would you like to kick?
The people who walk slowly infront of me

QN 4) What would you do with a billion dollars?
Travel around the world. Shop till i drop. Buy a new condo. Buy a new car(if i could drive then). Invests in businesses to get my next billion dollars. Put a sum aside for my family and friends to enjoy. Donate a sum to sichuan/vietnam people lol and SAVE hahaha

QN 5) What's your ideal lover like?
Tall, fit, drop-dead-gorgeous, rich, smart, nice, funny, cute, kind, generous, accomodating, charming, has his own opinions, can cook, doesn't gamble, romantic, thinks im the queen of his world, if not-wants me to be the queen of his world lol owns a horse, a big house, a nice car, a private jet, fun, out-going, puts down the toilet seat after..., enthusiastic, has passion, has goals, is a vampire by the name of Edward LOL or he can just be like jiaqi ahhahah

QN 6) Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved?
Your asking me? If i weren't in love, i would probably say being loved. But because i am, kinda, i just gotta say, there are some things you don't get to experience just by being loved. Like the weak knee sensation when you know your gonna see him soon. Or the crazy heartbeats when you see his name on your caller ID. Or smiling to yourself like an idiot whenever you think of all the little nice things he has done for you(even if he doesn't mean for you to think of it that way lol) Really, being able to love someone is a blessing itself.


QN 7) How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
As long as i can. Unless he tells me he'll be happier if i stopped waiting or whatever.

QN 8) Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Lots of them. Happiness is nothing but the ability to be content XP

QN 9) Define the term "friends".
People who know all about you(even your flaws) and still love you the way you are. They don't need you to change. They're always there for you when you need them. They try to make time for you no matter how busy they are. They don't make you feel neglected/outcasted. They forgive you when you make mistakes. And they laugh with you for the stupid things you do.

QN 10) If the person you like is attached, what would you do?
What can i do? Cry my heart out. Wish him happiness i guess, but tell him that if he ever breaks up with his girl, i'll still be waiting. Lol

QN 11) How would you see yourself in 10 year's time?
27. Married. Working in my dad's office.

QN 12) Who are currently the most important people to you?
My family, my friends, and him

QN 13) What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
LOL she's my cousin. Tall, smart, hardworking, potential housewife lol

QN 14) Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
How bout married and rich? Lol but if i really really(x10000000) love the guy, then i'll rather be poor with him. Nothing beats the happiness to be with the one you love.

QN 15) What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
Think of him lol

QN 16) Would you give your all in a relationship?
Definitely =)

QN 17) If you fall in love with 2 people at the same time , who would you pick?
Lol might as well ask me which one i will save if the both of them fell into the sea at the same time right! okay either the one i love more, or if i can't differentiate, the one who loves me more hahahaha or the richer one lol

QN 18) What type of people do you hate?
Hate is a very strong word. Think more of dislike. Many types. But the feeling fades off eventually so hmmm...

END

Ohyes. And now the time you've all been waiting for.. The list for the lucky 8 who have to do this next....

*DRUMROLLS*

1) Alan
2) Chia
3) Denise
4) Doreen
5) JiaHao
6) Serene Tham
7) Ziq
8) Zman

hahahahhaha LUCKY 8, BETTER GO DO HOR! OR ELSE I GO SPAM YOUR TAGBOARD!!!

Yups. Okay now that i'm done with that, let's see what i shall do in my free time since i don't have Blaw to study for hahahaha

1)Sleep more
2)Meet alan tonight for dinner
3)Meet felicia tomorrow, hopefully we can catch a movie
4)Finish reading 恋空
5)Complete e-learning assignments (POA journal and DSS applications)
6)Projects
7)Read Vampire Knights manga
8)Watch finish They Kiss Again
9)Continue with Romantic Princess
10)Watch MAR
11)Study for econs, POA (for school reopen)
12)Make pancake lol

Yeah hahaha i wonder how many of these tasks i can accomplish lol

Okay then

Off to my first task!

=D

~(12:47 PM)


Friends

Sunday, June 01, 2008

"Friendships that can be ended never really started"
-What was written on Darren's tshirt today

I really hope that isn't the case

I used to believe in best friends
And now, 'friends forever' is a thing of the past too
For now, it's friends for ALAP
ALAP-As Long As Possible

Seriously, i used to believe we could be friends for life
Thinking back now, maybe i was too naive
Only time can tell, i guess

I used to think you guys really knew/understood me too
But i was wrong
Sure you know my general characteristics and all
and besides, i'm quite predicatable huh
But do you know what i want, what i need?
Maybe not

Zihui said: Maybe cos you seem like the type of girl who doesn't need caring for

I asked kennard, (before the whole cold war thing started), and he said:
"you seem like a girl who wants a lot of care, and then take it for granted, a girl who doesnt really look at the big pictures at the right times, it's a want, not a need. You have friends, parents, well-off income, not income i mean financial background, or financial foundation, w/e, why do you think you NEED caring for?

Well i can't say he's wrong, he's right, actually, but something was missing in that answer. I didn't know what it was, until i called nicky up (by then the cold war just started, and i needed someone to talk to).

It's funny how things turned out.

I haven't spoken to nick for weeks, maybe months. Neither have i seen him in ages.
But i guess when he saw my number on his cell, he already knew what was coming(predicatable?)
Because right after he picked up the phone..

Him: yes xuan, what happened?
me: how did you know something happened?
him: because you wouldn't call if nothing happened
me: hmmmm
me: hey nick, do you think im the kinda girl who doesn't need caring for?
him: of course not. Everybody needs caring for. You need caring for. You need emotional support.

Yeah, i can't describe what i felt then. He gave me the answer i was unknowingly searching for. Or maybe that was the best answer i could get.

Thanks nick if you still read my blog, you have no idea how much i appreciate that answer. And um, thanks for picking up the call lol

And songen, maybe i'm being petty, but when i was troubled with the whole kennard thing and was telling you about it, was "dunno" and "eat my shit" all you can say? Frankly, i was dissapointed. I mean, seriously, forget it if you didn't try to offer some advice, or cheer me up, but "eat my shit"? That really i don't know, turns me off. And after that, i find that i can't tell you things like i used to anymore. Maybe i'm being oversensitive or paranoid here, but really, that was how i felt.

And i was looking through friendster and i saw songen's new picture. It had him, zihui, jiaqi and kennard. At esplanade. On vesak day. And immediately it brought back the memory of when songen told me that kennard bitched about me or something(before the whole "eat my shit" thing). Seriously, i can't imagine what he(ken) would have said. And now it seems like i can't bring myself to face you guys anymore? Or think about how you guys think of me now...

It feels like, say i'm walking infront of you guys with a chewing gum stuck to the back of my jeans, and all you guys can do is laugh secretly about it and not tell me. Yeah, and when i find out, well yeah, that was how i felt. Horrified. Embarrassed. Dissapointment, no doubt. Probably pissed too. Frustrated....

All the negative emotions. I feel like my heart can explode.

And also, i thought i belonged in the group. But suddenly i felt i was totally out of place.

And back to the whole kennard thing. I apologised already, what else can i do? People make mistakes, no big deal. I thought friends forgive each other no matter what they do. Well apparently with you it was different. "All your asking for are more chances and i won't give it to you until you can prove to me that you won't do it again". Com'on. How can i prove something that i might or might not do in the future. I would have done anything if you would just forgive me, treat you to a meal, w/e but i guess with you it's just so. difficult.

Why are things turning out the way it is now?
Am i the problem?
Maybe it's the time apart
Or the distance
Or maybe we're just too busy with our current lives to care about each other anymore
I don't know

Lonely, lost, empty, outcasted.
Basically these four words sum up what i'm feeling right now.

If things improved or went back to the way it was, i would probably laugh it off when i read this post again many years from now. But i'm pretty sure if the situation got worst or whatever, i'll be reading this post filled with regrets, even tears.. and i'm hoping that it wouldn't be the latter

Yeah just wanna say that. I do treasure you guys very much and i really don't want to lose you, that would be like losing a part of me. We've been through good times, and we're currently stuck in the bad times, but i believe(hopefully) we can get past this hurdle and get back to the way things were. It may not be perfect(nothing ever is, anyway), but if we work on it, i'm sure it will be better then now, better then it ever was. Maybe we won't be friends forever, but we can be friends for long enough for happy memories to fill our hearts and minds for us to look back on as we grow old. And besides, i don't want any of our friendships to end like this. On a bad note.

Sunshine after rain, right?

Yeah, i really hope so.

So to all my friends i love and treasure very much even though you might not know it, if i've taken you for granted, i'm sorry. If i've said the wrong things, i'm sorry. If i've done what i shouldn't have, i'm sorry. If i've upset/annoyed/pissed/whatever negative emtions you, i'm sorry. I'm sorry for not being there. I'm sorry for not being a good listener. I'm sorry if i neglected you. I'm sorry if i outcasted you.
I'm sorry for being such a horrible friend
I'm sorry

And also thank you guys for being part of my life
thanks for the good memories/good times
thanks for the jokes, the laughter, happiness, bliss that you've filled my life with
thanks for being there when i needed you
and listening to me rant on and on about whatever
and whatever advice i did or did not take
and for saying the right things
or the wrong things(even if i'd rather not hear it, but you care, i know)
thanks for being a friend

~(1:29 AM)