Sleep, come to me

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

I haven't slept all night, really. I was up till 6, 7 and i stayed awake as my room started to lit up and as the sunlight streamed into my room through my dark sea-green curtains. Yet, i stayed in bed till about 12. Tossing and turning, tossing and turning, trying to get some sleep, but to no avail. Yeah and what did i do all night? Watched tv till about 2.30am, read my little cousin's SVH Chick novel about Twins liking the same guy and such, ate the cake i got from Dome the other day, went out for some night air and back to my room, trying but failing to catch some sleep.

And having been awake for more then 24hrs now, i'd do anything for me to drift to lalaland and make up for loss sleep for the past few nights. The dark circles are showing. And you know what the scary part is? I don't even feel tired. I mean, yeah sure, mentally i want to sleep, but my body seems to think not. I would ask you guys for sleeping pills, but i was afraid you people would think i'm sucicidal lol

And enough about my insomia. After i finally gave up trying to sleep at all, i bathed, got changed and met Pris at Orchard mrt. We spent more then an hour at the clinic at Orchard Towers, where she was supposed to do her medical checkup for her DPA application. And when we were done, it was raining very heavily, lightning and thunder.

And even though i had an umbrealla, one that is so small it can't even cover me properly, we still got wet. I carried her bag and envelope in my bag and covered myself with the umbrealla, but i still got wet, waist down. As for her, she was totally drenched, as she ran in the rain since my umbrealla couldn't cover us both.

The place was totally flooded. My shoes are damp and water got in and my cargo was three-quarters drenched. Right then and there, i understood what the guy meant in that korean soap i watched every saturday night since two weeks ago

"When your feet feels cold, your heart will not"

So anyways, after that we arrived at our destination, Wheelock or something. We wanted to get a job at Borders but apparently all posts for eighteen and below are filled up. Next i had my ice-blended mocha with whip cream at Coffee bean while she had a slice of tiramisu. And since i've been failing to find a job for the past week, not that i looked hard enough, i've decided to take up the offer to work with her selling coupons. So right now, i just have to wait for the boss' nod, and i can start work right away.

Why the hurry? Because my savings are down to only six bucks and my phone bill revealed a shocking two hundred over dollars. Plus, people's birthdays are coming up, one after another. Just tomorrow, it's jiaqi's birthday lol But since I'm on budget right now, he's getting nothing but a birthday greeting sms from me lol

I can't help it, really. And besides, the job would not only provide me with the cash i need, but also distraction. And right now, it's not really a bad thing. Any distraction that can fill the emptiness in me is good. I guess.

For your information, i am neither emo nor love sick. I am not.

Some may think i'm in the land of denial, maybe, but even if i am would i admit to that?

So yah, no point explaining, since i don't know how to anyway. Let's just leave it as a big question mark lol

Yeap and that's all for today. Hope you enjoyed reading.

Cheerios.

Not like there's anything to be happy about.

~(8:07 PM)