Friday, June 29, 2007
Have you ever felt like you don't know what's going on with you? Like you know there's something, but you just can't pinpoint it. And there's this emptiness inside of you that you just can't seem to fill, like something is missing but you don't know what you've lost. Like you know you want to talk, but you don't know what to say, and what you eventually say is nothing of importance but you feel like you have to let it all out, but don't know what you have to "let out" in the first place. Like when you can't sleep and you stare into the ceiling and you ask yourself, "what am i thinking about?". Your heart is empty, your mind is empty, and your so calm about things it's scary, like your no longer capable of emotions, like sadness, anger, fear, happiness, agitation or even the feeling of missing someone. And when you smile, it's not one of joy, but of...?
~(11:28 PM)